One book...

I'm reading this book... by Colin.

And... you can see, my link-store has grown... check them out!
I love it... even though it's a book from 1985. Very good...

Meditation?

Im reading a book by Colin Rose about accelerated learning. The first part is dealing with the brain and later the memory...

Some people use meditation for different reasons. I've been thinking about it for quite a while. Maybe I take that step and start, if i find a good place where i can learn the basics. I thought about Zen, or what other could it be?

I can survive

Uh, many things in my head now...

Whatever happens, I will study in the UK from 2007 sept. With or without financial support, I will make it.

At the moment I feel I can achieve anything... Though I have an exam tomorrow... again, I'm better setting long-term goals then short ones... my focus is far ahead...

And about Mum, leaving her... it sounds sad... but why? I cannot be with her all my life. I try to look at it from a different aspect. Imaging what I would feel as a mother... and it's not that terrible.

Families are so much more important around this part of the world...

what am i doing?

It's so easy life now...
I tend to focus on the future instead of the present. Now that I have a more or less clear plan about my future, I don't care about my present...

Of course I live in the present, there are things I need to deal with. But I don't put effort in achiving something in the present.

I will take couple exams, but just to get to the next semester... because of the student competition. And the student card.

It also seems that I will look for a job in Budapest starting in February.

I'm pretty anxious about this whole thing at the same time. But surely can't wait to do what I really like to (at least I think I like). And living again with Pepez is.. hm... :))))

But leaving home... :(((

Have to take that step at some point anyways, right?

At this point it seems to be the best solution. This way is leading to the things I want to learn, experience, achieve.

to go...

... or not to go

where to go

how to go

with whom to go

going=leaving

from where

till when

without whom

AND WHY?